Friday, January 6, 2012

Food This Week

Ok, this is what I think my meals will be this week:

Breakfasts:

  • Omelet with broccoli and sun-dried tomatoes, toast, fruit
  • Cereal with soy milk, yogurt, fruit

Other meals:

  • tacos
  • soup w/cheese and crackers
  • pasta w/marinera sauce
  • dal, Indian carrots, and bread

Some of this stuff I already have in my fridge or freezer, which is good. It's going to be a busy work weekend.
The goal now will be to ensure things I don't need stay out of my shopping cart.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Sunday Update

Since I already wrote the dissertation below, this is going to be a quickie. I actually managed to plan and go grocery shopping yesterday. Today, I did some cooking.
For the record, I also started to play a game online, quit after a few minutes, and installed StayFocused to block the game site.

Meals planned for the week:
  • French toast, yogurt, fruit for breakfasts
  • Sauerkraut and veggie sausage, roasted potatoes, broccoli
  • Pasta w/marinara sauce, sauteed spinach w/garlic
  • Soup, cheese and crackers

French toast is made. Sauerkraut and veggie sausage meal is made. Pasta and sauce are made. I still have leftover soup that I brought back from my parents, and I have the makings for other soup.

Things that came home in my grocery bag that were not on my list:
  • Bag of chips and sour cream to make dip
  • Bag of cheese popcorn
  • Bag of Reese's miniatures
  • Hersey's Special Dark chocolate bar

Sigh. At least the chips and dip are gone. :(

Sunday, January 1, 2012

The Good and the Bad


So the walking thing. Yeah, I'll come back to that.

For now..it's the New Year. Again. (I wonder if there's a spike in the number of blog posts today with folks writing about all their resolutions and all that? Kinda like the spike in gym memberships.)

But that's not quite what I want to talk about. Do I want to be healthier and stronger and happier in the New Year. Absolutely. (And if I'm going to be really honest, I'd like to fit into my old clothes again, as in the clothes I was able to wear last year.) Making a resolution of some sort doesn't seem like the best way to achieve those things. I'll inevitably fail and then just feel bad, which certainly won't help with the happier thing.

So. What?

Perhaps the way to start is with a list of the ways in which I do and don't take care of myself. I've been working on this in my mind already, and I know it's going to be heavily slanted toward the bad.

Ways I do take care of myself, listed in order that they come to mind: 1) I eat food including some fruits and veggies. 2) I pet and love my cats. 3) I continue to interact with online friends and with my family (i.e., I do have some human contact). 4) I try to be self-aware (i.e., even though I'm often not taking care of myself, at least I'm not lying to myself about it). 5) I have become better at monitoring and catching migraines closer to when they start. 6) I removed all games from my phone and asked a friend to impounded my Nintendo DS including all DS games.

Those last two are actually pretty significant. I should give myself a lot of credit for them.

Ways I don't take care of myself, again, listed in the order that they come to mind: 1) I eat way more food than I need for fuel, and included in that is way too much junk. 2) I get virtually no exercise. 3) My sleep cycle is atrocious. 4) I am addicted to video games, and have an extremely hard time not becoming a lump on the couch for weeks on end once I start playing. 5) The self-talk has become very, very negative. 6) I have very little face-to-face social interaction outside of work. 7) I am a hermit most weekends. 8) There's more, but I don't want to list them here.

Also, the depression and anxiety cycle are slowly getting the better of me. Every now and then I'll have a win using the mental tools I've learned over the past years of therapy, but more often than not, I end up curled on the couch at the end of the day, playing a computer game to numb my thoughts.

Clearly all that above is waaay to much to work on all at once. But work on it I will, one thing at a time, because I DO want to feel better (at least I do when the apathy isn't winning).

I'm going to start with food, as I think it will be the easiest. I had a 6-hour drive home from my parents last week to think about this. My goal for January will be to plan my meals every week and go grocery shopping with a list. Hopefully, I will cook, but if things get crazy, it's perfectly ok for my meal planning to consist of frozen, ready-made dinners, baby carrots, and grapes. Just so that I actually take the time to plan and go shopping.

To keep myself accountable, I'm going to blog my meal plans and what I actually end up with in my grocery bags every week. Please come heckle me for being a slacker if I haven't posted anything by the end of the day each Sunday.

I've already planned and shopped for this week. And even cooked some! I'll get that post up later today. Next is to get out of my PJs, get cleaned up, and take a walk. The weather's nice, and I find a walk is a great way to start the new year. Especially since what I really want to do is take a nap.

Oh, and I've also given up video games for January. This is something I've done before, whenever my game playing become especially out of control. It's time, again.